It means nothing to you unfortunately, but I would give it all up if it meant I could be with you. I’m crazy about you. I just don’t understand why I wasn’t good enough for you… I would have done anything to make you smile and keep you happy, always laughing because that’s the sort of guy I am.
My man is my equal, my partner, my love, my best friend… It hasn’t been in my character for long time to lead with my heart first. I’ve used my head mostly because if I kept thinking, were thought one step ahead of myself, and was always on my toes I could protect myself from getting hurt. I never had those four things in a relationship but somehow I felt I could with you. I’m scared to open myself up to anyone because of whats happened to me in my past, I don’t know why but I trusted you.
You started off as a friend, I don’t remember laughing or smiling that much in a long time when I spoke with you. I should have let us stay friends and not let my heart get in the way of things. Maybe we’d still be talking everyday if I hadn’t felt anything for you. But I did. I started to fall in love with you.
Over the past few weeks I see you write things wishing you had someone to call your own. It tears me apart inside.
Why was I not good enough for the one guy I ever met that treated me so kindly?